Doppleganger

Doppelganger

Phantasm of what was

Not of what could be, or is in being

She haunts me, and she is not, she will not be her again.

More than a memory, less than my sustenance

Eerie fingers have close the doors to my heart.

Corollary only in appearance and sound

She is not the love I knew

I miss her and she is gone, I don’t want this.

In dream or delusion

You find me

And I am safe again

I know you, I know the meaning of the slightest word

No, you are worthy

You do not need to stand bulwark between

Paramount paramour(s) and pain

choosing love’s vanguard means knowing the cost

brave Aeowin you cannot save everyone.

Juggernaut

Insolent intimidator with your cunning coercion

You can’t win her; she is not a prize to be possessed

Smashing and controlling her heart, but never holding it

Not knowing her, amazing, worthy, beautiful her…

NO! You cannot force, you must let her choose

You cannot knock down the walls; she must let you in…

And she hasn’t, sorry… and please back off the pressure

You deserve more than safe controlling possession, you deserve devotion

In rumination and contemplation

I find you

And ponder what we(all) can be

I know you, I know the fear that you harbor and hide

But YES YES YES, you are someone

You can choose yourself and all that is yours

You deserve, dam it you DESERVE, you have done nothing wrong, YOU DID NOTHING WRONG

Loves absolution cleanses and consecrates you

Worthy in my heart…isn’t that what you want?