A semblance

Now a semblance of
What you were
You work to correct
And to preserve

but how many lies have you told?

Now a circus of
The obscene
Dig in and Dig deep
your shelter or a latrine?

and they're in this too

And they hurt so much

And you think you're being strong
But strength requires righteous
And commitment a to bullshit
Is still bullshit never the less

And I didn't cause
I can not control
Directing  your love
Was never my goal

Only cherishing you.... only honoring

And I hope for 

You again

the best I've known

my truest friend

but I can not 

watch you live this lie

and be much less

until you die

You were always worth more.