I will not

I will not
impress her into loving me
I'm worth more than that
and so is she
confusion rends her heart and I pray for clarity
and sanity
and selfishly
for who she used to be

 

And he lied about everything

 

I will not
let go of her true loving heart
I'm content to wait
for her return
and worry and weep about what I've learned
scars earned
touch yearned
for the girl she was with me

 

And every one knows it but her

 

I will not
keep quiet in their suffering
they need a daddy
not condemnation
and disdain, and his cruel art
now apart
broken heart
mom and girls torn apart

 

And I knew so much more but couldn't tell her and she wouldn't listen

 

I will not
forget her, all she might still be
please make her herself
not this phantom
now confused
spirit bruised
and I pray for her, prayers refused

 

And I am rent by her confusion, how could she not know... not feel

 

I will not
push her closer into the beast
she has to chose on her own
please give her strength
make whole
your love
now freed
your grace descend from above

 

And I know she may not chose me

 

Change her heart to be your's again
what ever that means

alone, or me, but please not him

please let her mend

 

And then, I will then sleep