My choice and chance

My only choice
is my only chance
is to move the hell on
and end this sick dance
back and forth
and pleading with you
and that's a dance I just can not do

I know prayers are answered
and so I will pray
I will not stop
lifting you up every day
to my God,
to my father, my king
that someday you will wear my wedding ring

We gave it a go
we did our damned best
but one little crack
and you failed the test
lying and leaving
and leaving again
and that is a game I can never win

You were the one
I'll love you for life
I truly hoped and I thought
you would be my wife
but I have to let go
this fight is too uphill
at the end I can say, Still and Always Will

I hope for your health
I hope you find you
because when you are happy
there's nothing I wouldn't do
to see you again
and to hold you so near
that angles and demons would quake in awe, wonder and fear

I have to move on
So go my love go, and figure this out.
You deserve so much more than
a life filled with doubt
and what you are choosing
but I'm near the edge and soon I might fall
if I don't walk away from this siren call